A number of discussions on this board had me thinking and suddenly an idea popped into my head:
“When I know what I’m doing, then most likely my playing sucks.”
I’m essentially self-taught. Back some 15 years ago I used to gig with some pro-musicians in some obscure jazz-bar. I wasn’t (and still am not) pro, just an amateur with a decent(-ish) level. And what I played then, I was playing it really good. I was on stage, no time to think or second-guess, just must play. At it best it was all about intuition if not instinct. The conscious part of me was but part of the audience, all the playing was at a level that I couldn’t grasp myself.
Pat Metheny seems to describe a similar experience
in this video:
In other words, we’re back to that “Play what you hear” thing, although that wording seems a bit simplistic to me. It also involves something like “Play ON what you hear”, or “Play WITH what you hear”. Including the “wrong notes” - they can’t really be wrong when you improvise, but you may just happen to hit a note that was not what you intended to do – you just need to go where they’re taking you.
Obviously, all of this doesn’t come falling from heaven, miraculously. It results from a sum of different experiences (musical and non-musical) and obviously, practice. To be honest, I don’t know which of my own experiences actually contributed to build my modest skills.
I’m sure all that babbling is not very interesting for those who already have a solid background; it’s more for those beginning in jazz and wondering what it’s all about, how to do it… And I’m not really helping in giving a method or a path, but I’m just trying to explain where I think you should be heading to. Knowing the destination is already a good start, I suppose.